So Long

I drag my feet
And slow my step
Long goodbyes
I cant forget
We travel far
As a team
Scenic views
So Much was seen
So many days
Sun on back
Somewhat pristine
Stories told and so
Much learned
Many things said
Til the candles burned
Time was precious
Now Concerned
almost gone
Presence remembered
Body cast away
In dawn
Spirits linger
Voices echoed
Remember in time
I try to rewind
So long
My friends
 family
On the road
I hold on tight
Too tight to hold
Lost in presence
My arms grow
Cold

- William de Castro ( bewillder)

Goodbye

I cannot lie
I never was good
At saying goodbye
Ending our union
Too hard to let
Die
I never was good at
Saying goodbye
When bye was never good
And I could never lie
I could never
Say goodbye
Because goodbye
Is goodbye
An end to a meeting
Disliking to let go
I never was good
At saying goodbye
So I will hold my tongue
Embrace you so tight
Never saying good bye
Watching you turn around
Walk out of my sight
Holding on to this moment
Never saying goodbye
Never saying a word
Never giving a hint
I Never was good at
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye

-by William de Castro aka ( bewillder)

To Be

To be present
In this moment
Joined together
At this time
I am yours and
You are mine

Nowhere else
would I be
Nothing else
Left to See
No distraction
Takes my mind
I am present
In this time

When im weak
You are stong
When your wrong
Your still wrong

When we laugh
We find joy
Your jokes
Still annoy

I am always in
Surprise
When I look
Into your eyes

My heart pounds
When you are near
And breaks
When your not
Here

When you tear
So too I tear
When you smile
So too I smile

Like two heads
On both sides
Of coin
Together
So too conjoined

For a love
Like yours
And mine
I'm always present
In this moment
For all time

By
William de Castro aka ( bewillder )

A Long Walk

I follow steps
That are not mine
I follow steps
That are not mine
Never straying from the line

On dirt roads, trails, and
Cobbled steps
I stumble on to unknown
Depths
Stretching far beyond
Forgetting where my journey
Had begun
Never looking far behind
Losing all sense of time
Weight of mountains
Weighing on my spine

Legs are fragile
Feet are bare
Turning back
I do not dare
I followed steps
That are not mine
Time has passed
Sometimes cruel
To have followed others
Made me the fool

I grew lost
And made a path
Struggled at first
I screamed
I cursed
Now settled in
Somewhat Profound
My steps alone
To shape new ground


Finding footing
Standing on a peak
Finding strength
When I was weak
My steps I forge
My journey engraved
Once was lost
But now im saved

By
William de Castro aka ( bewillder )

RIP

If I should die before my time
Let tears not fall from cheek
Or pain befall your heart
Let love seep into your
Soul and laughter
brighten each morning start
If I should die before my time
Let stories be told
Both new and old
of the good, the bad
And at times of the sad
If I should die before my time
it comes by grand design
And no fault of yours or mine
Or of the great devine
Let live and let die
And do not sigh in presence
nolonger do I reside
Hold me close and let me go
By and by, by and by
It is not the question to ask why,
 but remember it is not a loss
but to see you later
 and not goodbye

By
William de Castro aka (bewillder)

The Sun

The dawn eclipses the night 

chasing shadow blanketing the land

I follow the darkness 

the sun on my back 

noticing as each step brings forth 

beauty to new light.

Light that spills on to earth 

soaking into the pavement, the mountain, the ocean, and the lake.

Light that spills and

washes away the slumbering masses dreaming away to a new day.

In dawn I am awake 

forbade my tired eyes 

from shutting away 

the beauty of a sleeping giant 

Now shining in sky

like the gates of 

the universe turned on the light

 and encapsulated glimpses

 of heaven shined through a lock. 

I like how warm I feel

 from the sun on my brow 

how proud I feel 

sharing my moments in sun 

Walking in distance in distant places

Unforseen and alien to my tired eyes

I wander

 wondering if these adventures 

would ever stop 

would I want them to ever stop 

would my body ever want me to stop would my heart not ever want me to stop and I just stop

Stop caring that I could stop

and walk bathing in sunlight and swimming

In moments that I could never forget 

Floating through memories that take my breath away

- by 

William de Castro aka (bewillder)

Dreaming

Waking waking
from a daze
My eyes slowed to open in
A Haze.
The Sun carries
Me as I
Lay on clouds
In sky
tucking
Me in blankets
Of sunlight
Warm and
Songful
Lullaby

-William de Castro ( aka bewillder )

Rave

Lights so vibrant
 illuminate the room
Bass goes boom
Narcotics
plentiful
 are consumed
smoke clouds filled
this crowded space
Eyes dilate
And sweat pour from face
Rhythm and sound
 possess the crowd
Demons dance
Minds are gone in trance
Sniff sniff white powder does enhance
Chemicals now do mix
 left in haze
Transfixed

-William de Castro ( aka bewillder )

Fear

I quicken my steps and I start to run
I breath deeply as I race the sun.

Darkness spreading
its on my tail
I try as I might
Only to fail

I lose all sight
Engulfed in black
Forgotten
And
Lost off track

MOVE forward

I say

Yet slowly i sink
Breathless
No time to think

Imprisoned
For all time
Wishing to undue
Rewind

In dungeon lost
And never
Found

My screams
They echo
With great sound

Unheard by heaven
I am tied and bound
Stay still but dragged
Down
Down
Down



my body quivering
As my soul escapes
Locked out of heaven
Lost from grace

All hope lost
And in my surprise
my soul forever wanders
But never dies.

Daunting in my attempts to break this
Curse
In turmoil
Its turned to worse
Panic drowns me
I've become immersed

I stop struggling released
My fear
Let go my sanity
I held so dear

- William de Castro ( aka bewillder )

The Last Days

I tossed a stone in the air
and I shattered the sky
The shards fell to earth
and I watched the sun die

In the chaos I kept on throwin
never letting up
And showed no emotion
Blood rained down
Filling the ocean

Flooding the cities
Drowning
All women and man
Incessant in my task
Never giving a damn


I smiled in enjoyment
Remembering this moment
As the world grew dark
And gloom
Twilight filtered through
a blood soaked moon

And I stood there
alone
All alone
Destroyer of the world
With a toss of a stone

-William de Castro (aka bewillder)

Still Love

Creeping creeping in my mind
Thoughts that linger all through time
I hope and pine
In life and love

For someone lost
To now be found
For fate above
Still tie us bound
Strings that still play with sound
Resonate our music
Through walls
Through city block
Through town

Come to me friend
Oh lover
Hold me
With heat
With cover

In memory
I will hold you near
Still you whisper
Sweet nothings
Within my mind I hear
My soul grows warmth
That in spirit
And in love
You Are here

- William de Castro (aka bewillder)